Am I a creepy stalker? Female stalking male?

I have been stalking a man I have known for almost a full year now. I feel really guilty about it. I call them almost daily, sometimes leaving more than one message on their iphone. I even text them because talking is not enough. I wish I could leave them alone. I do not have a history of doing this to people nor do I have a history of sleeping with people or becoming obsessed with partners. This person is different and I feel very humiliated by my actions. I know they are keeping track of my texts and voice message and I'm waiting for the day someone with a suit knocks on my door and hands me some kind of paperwork pressing charges on harassment or forcing some kind of restraining order.

I do not stalk them online, even though I know he has a Facebook and maybe even other social media because I want to respect his boundaries but I just can't leave his phone alone. I miss how much time we used to spend together and I wish it was simple as just distracting myself with another man but I feel really gross and ashamed every single day I'm alive.

Added (1). I have known them for three years. (Not counting the year the year I'm talking about on my post.)

Just limit your actions. For example, if you are stalking them every day, just limit it to maybe twice a week.

Go to the doctor and get a referral for therapy.

Thanks! I have been limiting it because it used to be many.

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