Don't know what to do with my life?

There's so many problems going on with my life right now and I can't seem to tell myself to suck it up. Yes these problems may look like its dumb, but to me I get stressed out on the smallest things. So this year has been a pain, I have gotten through a recent breakup after 2 years of being emotionally abused and threatened. And that ruined my motivation to talk to other people, I like being lonely now and I lost a few friends. I don't really mind and I think I should care but I don't? What's wrong with me? Another thing is I applied for a job 3 years ago; they finally called me back, I seemed to mess up the interview because a paper I needed seemed to expire and now they said they are going to hire someone else. I really wanted this because its my first job and now i'm sad because I might not get it in time. Lastly I bought a iphone for my mom with her own money since she doesn't know english and it costs alot and the delivery people said they delivered to the mailbox, so I checked and the mailbox seemed to have been broken, someone might've stole the iphone and i feel like my mom would never trust me again, its all my fault. Yes people have it worse than me but right now all I can do is feel useless

Join the French Legionnaire lel

You are thinking in the past and present. Starts thinking about the present and future and what you need to do now to your dreams come true and how to create new dreams. Start seeing the beauty around you instead of all the negative points and you will see a new light and new life.

So, you escaped a bad relationship, that should feel good, don't sit around waiting for a job. If you can't get one make one. Like, sell services, paint signs, do roofing, drywall, odd jobs, make original jewelry out of beer tabs, whatever. Get a loan, buy some tools. Study trades and programming i did. There are no jobs. Except teaching English in China. Throw parties and charge money, organize events. Sell your own art