I want to kill myself painlessly cause i just don't know wht to do anymore?

Ok so i have been having alot of problems and troubles all week and i just don't i have trpubles at school with people laughing at every little thing and being bullied when my friends are not around and also being left out and people not talking to me and ect. And being ignored at home i want an iphone but my mom doesn't want to give me on and her yelling and telling my aunt that me and my cousin were on the phone late at night and my aunt being too strict about what we talk about and yelling, hetting drunk sometimes throwing stuff at my cousin and we live in two diffrent state. And my aunt won't let nme talk to her and then i'm upset about my appearance 5'4 and 141 pounds i hate my height and weight i wanna be shorter and skinny and also god turned away from me allowing bad things to happen like this week. So i don't know what to do and i niether want to get help or kill myself and please hurry with an answer i'm cutting my wrist but iys not working and i wanna die now.

Don't look at the bad things that's happening look at the good things don't be judging Wat you don't have look at things you have, its against gods learning to kill your self don't do it its just dumb to look at it like that, Stop being ignorant in looking at the good things than seeing you don't have that and that and having problems that are short issues, just don't

Oh my god. First of remember you are a beautiful person, flaws don't define you! Everyone wants to look different but sometimes we have to accept ourselves how we're or work to become skinner. (plus 5'4 isn't tall hun) & If you can't speak to your cousin then speak to friends… And also mention that you feel left out i'm sure it's not intentional. But please love do not cut your wrists please. You deserve much better and we all have our ups and downs. I promise though you will get through it.