My life keeps getting worse I feel sucidial? - 1

I just turned 21 I can't find a job I've had four interviews and no one has hired me these are all minimum wage jobs I can't catch a break I feel frustrated and everyone has lied to me the managers will give me interviews and then say were not hiring when they're giving more interviews and it's the Holiday Season coming up. If I don't find a job I have to work with my Mom at her school with kids and it's only two hours and I only get paid $400 a month which I can't live off. I also don't work weekends which I want to since I don't have a life I want to work Holidays and weekends I don't want to be at home. I also don't want to work with my Mom and kids. I don't have a cellphone and I have to save up for that and pay car payments and pay other stuff and $400 a month is not going to cut it. I'm going to apply five more places this weekend. I also don't have friends which is good right now because they would probably say how much of a loser I'm for not having a job. I've never had a girlfriend and my family and everyone puts me down for that but how am I supposed to take out a girl with no money and I can't even text or call her with no cell phone which I been wanting for a long time but could never afford I really want a iphone which is what I'm saving up for the next one. Also my younger cousins who are still in high school have jobs and make the amount which I could live off. I don't know what to do I'm being forced to work a job I don't want to and my life keeps getting worse and I hate myself and I feel worthless. Nobody gives me a chance.

This may not seem helpful but do it anyway.

Don't you dare kill yourself. It's not worth it at all. AT ALL. DO NOT DO IT. Just, don't. When living, you've always got chances. Death takes everything away, absolutely everything, including your chances.
Secondly, just keep going. Keep trying and you will get somewhere, closer to where you want to be. I promise.

Learn to play that sally.

Take that 400 a month and go to a trade school for 3 or 4 months. They will place you in a great career unless. You have destroyed your body with tattoos and piercings like many young kids do now a days. Then they wonder why nobody wants them. My stepson was a bum. He finially went to welding school for a couple of months with no place to live and taking showers at the gym with a 29 dollar a month membership.sleeping in an alley and keeping everything he owns in a duffle bag. In 6 months he is now making 6000 dollars a month and driving a 35000 dollar pickup truck.