I have been stalking a man I have known for almost a full year now. I feel really guilty about it. I call them almost daily, sometimes leaving more than one message on their iphone. I even text them because talking is not enough. I wish I could leave them alone. I do not have a history of doing this to people nor do I have a history of sleeping with people or becoming obsessed with partners. This person is different and I feel very humiliated by my actions. I know they are keeping track of my texts and voice message and I'm waiting for the day someone with a suit knocks on my door and hands me some kind of paperwork pressing charges on harassment or forcing some kind of restraining order.
I do not stalk them online, even though I know he has a Facebook and maybe even other social media because I want to respect his boundaries but I just can't leave his phone alone. I miss how much time we used to spend together and I wish it was simple as just distracting myself with another man but I feel really gross and ashamed every single day I'm alive.
Added (1). I have known them for three years. (Not counting the year the year I'm talking about on my post.)