I was trying to keep it a secret from my parents, that I liked other girls. I did have it a secret for 15 years till one day, my mom just randomly walked in my room. She grabed my iphone when I was on it so it was unlocked.
she then was looking at all my photos
when I reached over to take it back (cause I didn't want her to see my girlfriend in it) she said she was my mother and she could smash my iphone anytime she wanted, or do anything with it (even though I bought it and pay for it with my money).
well she ended up seeing me kissing my girlfriend in a photo with a rainbow heart over it.
I got a good scolding and face slaps for kissing another girl.
its now like the big topic whenever we have a family get together they are always now teasing me whenever we pass by a girl or see a rainbow.
they talk about it in not a playful way, but a negative way.
they say they pray for me every night and they hope the devils demons will leave me to be normal again (iv been dating my girlfriend for almost four years and I never really liked boys but i'm scared to tell them that) my mom is always telling me how I could/should pray to the lord every night to be straight and to take the demons out of my heart.
and I do! Every night I have, for nearly a year. But I still really love my girlfriend more then any other boy.
am I praying right?
is there a certain thing I have to say or eat?
I Really want to be straight so bad and i'm crying right now cause I can't. And I think the demons will forever be in me.