I have a crush on this guy that's in my 5th hour. I'm a freshmen and we meet this year, in my 5th hour class at the beginning of the year, I didn't really care for him or talk to him at first but as the year went on he came up to me in class when I was by myself and started cheering me up, from there we were ok but ill never forget the day when out the blue he started being nasty to me. Calling me names and making fun of me in front if people in 5th hour. Days he is nice to me but then he starts calling me ugly, fat your typical 5th grade insults etc. Few weeks ago he tried knocking my books out of my hands in the hallway and when I said something back at him he throw a book at me and called me a some names out loud infront of everyone. ( later that night I crued and still do) there has been more naming calling incidents of this nature. I don't get him, he's been nice lately we talk over Facebook, and in my class, I let him borrow my stuff sometimes and use my locker abd he apoetciates it I guess, he even lets me use his iPhone sometimes. I have feelings for him and I don't know why, I HATE myself for it. I know he doesn't feel the same since he has called me ugly and fat. I play these incidents in my head over abd over again so I stop having feelings for him so I don't get hurt AGAIN, but they don't go away. WHY IS THIS? How can I stop? I hate myself for this.
(Sorry for this being so long. Sorry for poor grammar I'm typing this off my phone it's a bitdifficult)
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