Since I started High School 2 years ago, I have had such a bad fear over rejection. I don't mean rejection by a girl saying "No" when i ask her out. I mean anything to do with Joining in on things. Like for example I get so much Anxiety that when I play a sport i fear so so much that I will drop the ball, miss the ball or failing. This happened once while playing football at school with my friends and a few people in my class, I had thrown the ball to no one while in a game I was so depressed that night. Well I'm depressed a lot but I try not to notice it and my parents don't care. Other times when i fear of rejection is when my brothers are playing together on the ground (kinda wrestling). I'll watch but I won't join because I think they will tell me to go away cause they don't wanna be near me. One more thing is that I NEED to have (be next to) friends because I think people will reject me because I'm different. I usually try fit in and act the way they act (people in my class) but I just end up acting like an idiot and making people not want to be near me. Is there something wrong with me? There had to… And if not, I don't know what to do.
-Sorry about grammar, am on iphone.