WHY do I miss and 'want' my abusive husband back After I sent him out?
The marriage has been abusive since the beginning.physical. But the words have been the words and the physical intimidation when he gets angry. We have been apart since (oct-2.5 months. )
I miss him so much.especially when he comes to visit kids. I sent him out.bc OK.LONG story.
I hacked into his email. I know it was wrong. He never let me look at his phone. Was a very private man. I thought he was having an affair. But instead I discovered some soft. I confronted him.guilty as charged. And then he gave me a hard time and said nasnasty words for hacking into the email. When I merely tapped him on face he called me a fen C. I was very hurt n shocked as he never called me that before. Anyways. I hit him with my cell, I didn't through it but I hurt him on face very minor when he was lying down after we were arguing… I was holding our baby. Yes we got two kids! He flipped out n called me the B and C word many times and completely trashed my iPhone to unrecognizable condition.
***That was his last night here n I asked him to move out. Now I miss him so much and I'm so broken hearted ouour family is apart. Now he says he CAN'T get over me hitting him (as IF he hasn't done so before. And I have done that the first time).
He is upset he had to start again outside mm but I gave him many many chances and took many of his ugly words… VERBAL ABUSE.
NOW. He says he doesn't want to come back. He doesn't love.can't get over what I did where do I start.