So recently I got told by one of my friends that a while back that my boyfriend was trying to sext her, so when she told me I confronted him and he told me, "no, she's lying. She's gross id never touch her." so I believed him right away, then one night I stayed the night at his house and I grabbed his phone thinking it was mine(we both have an Iphone 5) so without thinking I turned it on and it was his, and the first thing I seen was a message from that girl, so it kind of made me wonder if he lied so I decided to go through his messages(I never have done this but I was worried). And turns out he lied and he was sexting her. Then I found out he was sexting 4 other girls. They were all at different times and they were a one night thing. A few messages were from november, december, and the most recent was february. We have been together since July 3rd 2013, and these sexts were during our relationship.
these messages were talking about sex, and things they would do to each other.
When I found out I was crying and so then I left, and he tried apologizing telling me he was drunk those nights he texted them, but I just can't get over the fact that he did it. I don't think he would do it again, but you never know for sure right?
How do I forgive him? Because its been over a month and I still can't get over it. I THINK ABOUT IT EVERY DAY. And when I do It makes me angry and I don't like being around him. Its not good for either of us.
and is this cheating on me?