I have been away from him since 3 months. He is still in the US waiting for me. I'm in Europe to sort out some issues with my health we both agreed on that. I wanted to go back soon but haven't told him a date. I was supposed to fly back on the 5 Sept but I didn't because things with my teeth kept changing.
We written regular every 2 days. He has an iphone and checks it all the time for new mails and messages! We married last year and had some BIG problems over time. Finally he was diagnosed in Feb. As rapid cycling bipolar, that explained the mood swings which made my life pure hell sometimes. But our love was always stronger so we still were close.
The last email i got from him was on monday. I had to take 200 dollar of our account because i needed it for some medical staff. Although he gave me money before i left but i needed it. Its the second time.
First he was upset and questioned me a few times via email. Then i explained and he said finally in his last mail that if i needed it its ok and also said: i have asked too many times when you come back and you haven't answered me so far.
I replied tuesday at 1am in the morning and explained that i can't tell him when i'm back as my health issues kept on changing, i still have appointments, and i also want to meet an old friend at the end of october. But then i asked him some questions about what he thinks on certain issues here (nothing to do with him). My husband is not a talker, because of his bipolar he can't go deep into things but he always writes every 2 days and is very good in expressing his love.
So i asked questions in my reply on tuesday.
Since then i had no answer (which is unusual as he usually would write right away, same day, when i ask something). On wednesday evening i send another mail: did you get my email darling? I hope you reply soon. Love you… Again no answer all wednesday long. Again the same today = he still didn't write.
I'm very worried now. I just send him another mail, saying: how is my husband? I haven't heard from you darling. Did you get my email on tuesday morning when i asked if you want some of my old photos? I hope you are not still upset about the money but you were right i needed it for my health.
I know that he got over that money thing. But my husband is usually very affectionate and showing his love so i don't understand why he hasn't send me any more emails since monday. He does all of his staff from his iphone anyway. Especially if i ask him something he usually replies right away. He is working until 3 pm each day, but i can see on the bank account that he was off on wednesday and saw his grown kids in the other city.
I'm worried now as we had some BIG problems when i was there because of his mood swings, he stopped his meds while i'm here. But we already agreed he gets help when i get back and i written him a very loving Love letter a week ago and he was very happy and said he will do everything for our marriage too. (Still i must admit that I had some big doubts about going back to him, of course i want to, but it was real bad for me, he treats me real bad when he is manic. His doctor said he doesn't mean it and its part of the illness, i know that, and i had him many times crying and saying that but its very hard to live like that. Plus i have no other relatives, no family. This is another reason why i made more time here. I could have been back earlier if i wanted to but was also wanting some space and hoping that it may give me some strength not to be dependent and able to break up if I had too one day.
Do i have a reason to worry?